VULNERABILITY WARNING!!! A little over a year ago I did a photoshoot with the seriously talented @justin_ward_photography.
He tagged me in this picture today. The first thing I saw was my thigh. EWWWW! I thought. That looks so big.
My thighs have always been a big insecurity for me. I certainly won't be posting this picture, I thought. Then I looked a little closer. It's such a cool picture. I love how my long shirt thingy is blowing and look how confident I look. My thighs look strong, and they are. Then I changed my thinking. I decided: I'm going to post this picture and share my feelings because I'm not alone, and that I am sure of.
Have you ever had a picture in the coolest or prettiest setting or maybe with people you love dearly, maybe even during a once in a lifetime thing like at a wedding, but, you deleted it or wouldn't post it because of how you thought you looked? At one point, you WANTED that moment documemted because it meant something to you so you jumped in the picture or even asked someone to take it for you. Then, you deleted it. Not worthy enough to be part of your story.
When I saw this picture the self-defeating thoughts started: "My followers and clients will focus on my "giant thighs" and think I don't know what I'm doing. They will notice how they are bigger than they used to be and see how much I "let myself go." No one will want to work with me because of how I look." CRAZY TALK, AM I RIGHT!? I caught myself realizing how silly I was. The truth is. None of those things are true. Some people may actually think those things about me anyway. The ones that do probably need help and support the most because there is no diet, workout plan, or number on the scale that will ever make them feel worthy. I experienced this first hand.
So here's to my own FREEDOM and INDEPENDENCE from these silly lies I tell myself and worthless standards I set for myself. I do LOVE this picture. Wishing you some freedom from your insecurities too.
Happy 4th guys!